I’ve been in a publishing rut lately. Meaning, it’s been too long since I clicked that little blue button that says Publish.
How I got into a rut doesn’t matter today. I’ll save that for later.
It’s 5:42 right now. 5:41 was my breaking point. What’s so special about 5:41? Not a damn thing. That’s just when it happened.
I decided I was done wallowing in my own self-loathing and guilt. Done with the lie of perfectionism. Done worrying about how to justify my absence to you.
By the way, it’s nice that you’re still reading this post, because I don’t know exactly where it’s going yet.
This is a mere symbolic gesture, and I suspect that will become the punchline. I’m just fulfilling a promise I made to myself, and maybe to a friend, that I would click the blue button on something.
I’m sure you’ve been in a rut before. It sucks, right?
Maybe yours wasn’t about publishing. Maybe it was fitness or money or some other habit. Those things can sneak up on you sometimes. But at some point, you become aware of it, and one of two things will happen.
You either choose to step out of the rut, or you choose to stay in.
So, what do you choose?
Almost everything in your life is there because of your choices.
Genetics and random circumstances play a role, but you have an incredible amount of power to choose the rest. I guarantee that you don’t appreciate the amount of power you have. You can’t possibly imagine it until you start to use it. I’m in the same boat.
We all choose to live with some things that make us unhappy.
The point isn’t to feel bad about your choices, but to appreciate your power to change them.
At 5:41, I was laying on the ground, feeling unhappy about something I could easily change.
It sounds ridiculous. And it is. And that’s the point. And that’s ok. If it weren’t ridiculous, the power to choose something else wouldn’t be so obvious.
So, I’m doing that. No big deal. It’s 6:18 now.
I doubt I’m qualified, but I’m going to give you some advice about this anyway. Three things that helped me get out of this rut:
- Forgive yourself for where you are. (That’s the hard one for me.)
- Think of a small symbolic action you can take.
- Just do it. Immediately.
Don’t worry about making it perfect. The gesture is what matters at first.
That’s enough to get you out of your rut, but you won’t be done then. Your final destination is somewhere else. It doesn’t matter how far away it is. You took the first step. That’s the hard one.
Your next choice is the one that will define you. I hope you choose to create a habit that will make you happy.
I hope you take the second step.